I’m Cured. Who Will I Be Without … ?!

This article is dedicated to Sherry, whose comment this morning made my day.

Throughout my illness I walked a fine line of not over-identifying with my illness. Every aspect of my life was taken over by the symptoms, but I knew I was more than that.

I want my life back was my driving force.

Catch-22. If I spent too much time focusing on the illness it would come to define me. If I tried living a normal life, however, the symptoms would trip me up, reminding me just how sick I was.  

Energy flows where attention goes. In better understanding this illness I was able to find remedies and eventually, a cure. However, by paying attention to every nuance and detail I ran the risk of staying stuck in sick land.

Meet the New Boss. I know this experience has changed me. I look at the world differently.  Aaron knew me before I became ill but my kids didn’t.

One of the most difficult parts of the previous years has been the fact my kids had only known me sick.  I was determined not only to get better but to live as normal a life as possible.  I went into many environments that were EMF nightmares but were places of joy and learning for them.   I was determined they were not going to remember their childhoods as being overshadowed by a sick mom.

Now my kids are seeing the real me.

Same as the Old Boss. I feel like myself again.

Years ago, a friend promised me that “I” was still in there, I was just buried deep inside. Thank God he was right, though at the time neither of us knew what it was I was buried under.

And Aaron? He’s seeing the person he knew I had been and could be.

More than once he’s said “It’s nice to see you smiling” and “it’s nice to see you happy” – with the word “again” hanging in the air like a bubble above a cartoon character.

I’m Healthier. Though I felt as if I was in good shape before I became ill, I now see how far from the truth that is. Toxins were accumulating in my tissues, displacing my minerals and causing deterioration. It was a matter of time before something gave.

People may not be as healthy as they think they are. Absence of symptoms is not the presence of good health. Toxins are thieves in the night wreaking havoc.

I feel normal. For me, that means feeling like I did when I was in my early twenties, at least physically.

PTSD.  As I’ve detoxed, I have healed emotionally.  I will be writing more about this.

Spirit. There were times I felt very cut off from the world. There were times I felt singled out. There was a time I was tempted to go to a doctor and get pills so I didn’t have to feel.

I knew that wasn’t the answer. I knew the medication would exacerbate the problem.  Pills and numbing symptoms are no answer.

I trusted my body to heal.  My philosophy has always been that Mother Nature is the best doctor.  I doubled down on my determination to work through to health naturally.

Faith. I didn’t understand why but I never blamed God and I never lost faith.

My Near Death Experience gave me a perspective that helped in this situation.

Who Am I Without…?! I never identified with illness.  I wasn’t born EMF Sensitive so I knew it could be reversed.

I knew who I was and I was determined to get my life back.

I left corporate in 2003 to focus on a new career. Getting that career off the ground has been challenging.

Being sick has definitely impacted my efforts though it has helped in certain ways.

And Now? I can move forward with my dreams and goals.